I Love It When…

I love it when my husband stares into my eyes like he is trying to look into my soul.  What is it about a certain man’s stare that can make a woman feel so vulnerable?  It’s almost like they are seeing things that they shouldn’t.  The things we keep hidden sometimes even from ourselves.  I have known my husband since I was a sophomore and he was a senior in high school and he knows more about me than anyone in the world, but he still makes me feel shy, vulnerable, and naked.  Not in a bad way though.  In a way that makes me feel feminine, submissive, enamored, and lustful.  Most of you understand 🙂

I love it when my husband holds me down.  He will pin my hands above my head with his, it is such a turn on.  I love it when he takes away my control because I have a lot of responsibility and “control” everyday, so losing it for a few minutes to a man I love and trust can be a beautiful thing.  However, I prefer him to take it than for me to give it.

I love it when my husband makes demands in the bedroom, especially during my punishments.  It was really, very hard for me to get him to the point where he is now as far as his Dominance, his role in our Domestic Discipline Relationship, and comfort with punishing me.  So sexual demands and punishment demands are a wonderful thing and I love submitting to them.

I love it when my husband pulls my hair.  It always makes me instantly alert and ready to submit.  He never pulls to hard, or hurts me too much.  Always just enough to get my attention. 
I love it when my husband tells me I am going to be spanked.  I have tried to explain the difference between saying “do you want a spanking?” Or  “You are going to get a spanking.”  It’s the difference of me making the decision and being in control of the situation or my husband taking control and making the decision.  Seeing the trend yet?

I love it when my husband pulls down my panties.  Something about this act makes me feel very vulnerable and exposed even though my husband has seen me naked hundreds of times (from all different angles too 😉 ).  I always feel my heart start to pound a little harder when he does this.

I love a lot of things about my husband, I could list hundreds of things.  I am a lucky lady and I am so excited to be celebrating our One Year Wedding Anniversary in 3 days.  Everyone at our wedding wished us “a lifetime of happiness”…he gives me that everyday.  Even on the days we bicker and don’t see eye to eye. 

The Life of a Submissive

The life of a submissive isn’t always an easy one.  It might sound easy to have someone guiding you through life, but it’s not.  It is very difficult trusting your life in some other person’s hands; trusting them to know what is right for you and make decisions in your best interests.  It is difficult to let go of control and give it to someone else and trust them with it.  It takes practice.  It takes conscious decisions.  It takes. . .balls.

To listen and obey.

To trust.

To relinquish.

It’s not easy.  Then to be punished.  That’s a whole different ball game.

To trust someone to punish you for misbehaving and not to take it too far, or push you too far beyond your limits.

To accept that you have done something wrong and know you will be disciplined for it.

Knowing it will hurt.

It takes a strong person to be a submissive.  It takes a lot of love, trust, and the big one. . .communication.

The life of a submissive isn’t an easy one, but I think for most of us we wouldn’t have it any other way.  It is our devotion to our Dom(me)s, Daddys/Mommys, Husbands/Wifes, Masters/Mistresses and HoHs that drive us to want to be better and be the best submissive we can be.   If we didn’t love them unconditionally we wouldn’t be so willing to submit.

The life of a Submissive. . .I can’t even imagine the life of a Dominant.